I wish I could figure out how to think of myself first, my own feelings and my own life before everyone else. But at the same time, I like that I think of other people often. I am really beginning to get worn out from always wondering what people are thinking of me. I want people to see that I'm a nice person, that I will help in whatever way I can and that I'm not a mean person. Whether if it's work, friends, family etc. But I don't want to be taken advantage of and sometimes, that's exactly how I feel. I want balls. I want to be able to speak my mind without people thinking 'Wow, what a bitch'.